Sunday, April 16, 2006

Last thursday, Hubby brought us for dinner. He fetched me from work,went to fetch Rayyan then we headed to Swenson,Bukit Panjang.After making our orders,Hubby hold both our hands and he make a statement.......a simple statement that made me so proud & happy for him at the same time feeling sad.....(for my self). Fyi I actually teared rite there at that moment! Hubby was selected to go for a 6 month course at CDA. YOU guys out der reading might be sying..."still in spore what...so wats the big deal.....rite??? True its in Spore but he is only allowed to go back on weekend......so in another words he only will be back once a week.........but for the first few months they might be only able to go back once in 2 weeks.....pathetic rite???During the 6 months,somewer in the 2nd week of Aug they will be sent to Brunei for training............ARRGHH........ Seriously im very happy for him......he has always wanted to go for the course.Hopefully he will do well & pass the course and who knows this will benefit him in the upcoming years with SCDF. Hubby, Rayyan & me will always pray for your success.Insya Allah. But the thought of being away from him for that period..hmmm i really cant imagine myself going thru the upcoming months w/o him by my side.....I have never been away from him since we got married .......the longest period is only 24hrs,which is his working hours.....other then that we have never parted that long.......i really don know how to describe the feelings in me...... happy? sad? confuse? missing him oredi(even he have not left yet), afraid of my Rayyan''s feeling? How he gonna cope w/o Daddy ard? We even joke ard yesterday.....he told me for all he knows, when he comes back Rayyan will say"Eh Daddy dah balik? Rayyan will nows how to talk oredi ehehehe....it make me sad he said that...i know wat he meant...he gonna miss watching Rayyan's growing up......He even apologised to us for breaking his promise to bring us to Dubai in May for our anniversary holidays...... I told him we can always catch with that later when he comes back........its the thought of parting with him make me so sad....im so so so so so sad! We spent watever time left for us together, we got only friday n sunday to spend with(he was working on the sat).We spent the time shopping ard for his stuffs. Juz finish helping him pack his stuffs just now,iron his clothes and packing some stuffs for me to bring over to mum's place. Hubby is sleeping now as he really need a good sleep as he will be leaving at 6.30 am tomorrow. My darling Rayyan is also sleeping, tug warmyl under the blanket with his father...... As for me..Im sitting here blogging to express my feelings down.....and counting down the hours till morning, if only i could slow down the time i would so i would be able to spend more time with him but i knew it will never happen...never! Hubby,i don think you are able to read my blog while you are der....but i juz wanna say that we both love you so much n will miss you lots n lots n lots n lots..........we will be waiting for your calls and we will patiently wait for you to come home. We will miss you Daddy...Take care and we know we will be always be in your heart and mind every seconds even though we are apart! Fyi.....Daddy and Rayyan went to the barber to have the heads shave earlier today..... as a parting sacrifice hehe if only i could join in too!